12-03-14

What a great day today was!  I am so blessed in my life right now.  I have a love who is my friend and fits all, yes all of the things on my list.  I am thankful for my daughter who is a bright, intelligent, giving and fun gal.  I am grateful for my career that allows me to be with some of the best people I know.. I am grateful for my beautiful house that is so much fun to decorate at this time of the year.  I am thankful for my dogs, they are companions and headaches that I would not trade for all the tea in China.  I am grateful for my family who loves me, gets me and puts up with me.  I am happy for today that I am exactly where I need to be even though I don't understand why things happen the way they do, doesn't matter, it is all good.  I am most of all happy, thankful and grateful for the love of God.  He loves us despite ourselves and that is most definitely a great thing.

8-31-14

Labor Day weekend.  So he left two years ago..so why do things still trigger me such as finding out that my former husband bought a house right behind my school.  Most will say, "That is just wrong."  Spent the last few days probing why my feelings are triggered because it represents a sadness that my family is gone... that my husband rejected me once again because he finally found a woman who he could leave me for... I guess that is the real trigger.

I know better what I want in my next relationship with a man.. and I am willing to wait for it and not settle on second best.  I have a list and I am trying to live the list myself.  This past year has been a journey of dating and finding out about men.  It has been an interesting journey and I am very grateful for where I am at right now. 

There is such a peace and knowing that I will be with this person by the time I am 50.  My daughter has a request that she wants me to be with someone so that we can be a family.  That is my request to the universe.  All the pieces will fall into place soon.  I just need to open my heart and not be guarded!  Exciting times.

8-28-14
So, a year ago I came home to a more than unpleasant visit.  Went on to have a great evening.  It is a year later.  While what I thought and wanted to happen did not and life still triggers me in a deep way, I am still very excited about being grateful for my life, living in the moment and looking forward to being so excited about my next journey. I am in a much better place... So thankful for everything that has led me to this moment for it is in this moment that I can choose to be at peace or let me mind drift to less than noble thoughts. 

8-9-10

Enjoying the moment, the hour, the day and my life today.  I will be fifty in 8 months and I am so excited about the wonderful changes, opportunities, loves, fun, and just adventure to come my way by then.  I am so certain about one thing that I have written about in my journal and I will reveal on the day I turn 50.

7-13-14

The Super moon is absolutely beautiful tonight!!! It makes me happy.

6-30-14

Last day of June.. Working on the yard.  Why do I always have such unrealistic expectations when it comes to yard work completion?   I am thankful for my yard.  What is the list of things I want in someone I will share my life with someday?
1.  Available...
2.  Respectful
3.  Wants to have fun and be somewhat of a daredevil
4.  Has nice encouraging words even when down
5.  Positive
6.  Godly and wise
7.  Has common interests or goals

I guess I will need to be these things first so that I know what they look like in others.

6-16-14

Today I wanted to have a message and it is
"HOPE FLOATS"
I will know.