8-31-14

Labor Day weekend.  So he left two years ago..so why do things still trigger me such as finding out that my former husband bought a house right behind my school.  Most will say, "That is just wrong."  Spent the last few days probing why my feelings are triggered because it represents a sadness that my family is gone... that my husband rejected me once again because he finally found a woman who he could leave me for... I guess that is the real trigger.

I know better what I want in my next relationship with a man.. and I am willing to wait for it and not settle on second best.  I have a list and I am trying to live the list myself.  This past year has been a journey of dating and finding out about men.  It has been an interesting journey and I am very grateful for where I am at right now. 

There is such a peace and knowing that I will be with this person by the time I am 50.  My daughter has a request that she wants me to be with someone so that we can be a family.  That is my request to the universe.  All the pieces will fall into place soon.  I just need to open my heart and not be guarded!  Exciting times.

8-28-14
So, a year ago I came home to a more than unpleasant visit.  Went on to have a great evening.  It is a year later.  While what I thought and wanted to happen did not and life still triggers me in a deep way, I am still very excited about being grateful for my life, living in the moment and looking forward to being so excited about my next journey. I am in a much better place... So thankful for everything that has led me to this moment for it is in this moment that I can choose to be at peace or let me mind drift to less than noble thoughts. 

8-9-10

Enjoying the moment, the hour, the day and my life today.  I will be fifty in 8 months and I am so excited about the wonderful changes, opportunities, loves, fun, and just adventure to come my way by then.  I am so certain about one thing that I have written about in my journal and I will reveal on the day I turn 50.