12-21-14
Be happy now! 
God whispers to you in good times,
have conversations with you daily and
shouts at you in bad times.
CS Lewis

12-14-14
True Love...... Love's first kiss..... a sign!!!!   I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream......but if I know you, I know what you'll do.  You'll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream.

12-11-14
What an interesting week.  Still pondering.  Four more months!!! Excitement in the air.

12-03-14

What a great day today was!  I am so blessed in my life right now.  I have a love who is my friend and fits all, yes all of the things on my list.  I am thankful for my daughter who is a bright, intelligent, giving and fun gal.  I am grateful for my career that allows me to be with some of the best people I know.. I am grateful for my beautiful house that is so much fun to decorate at this time of the year.  I am thankful for my dogs, they are companions and headaches that I would not trade for all the tea in China.  I am grateful for my family who loves me, gets me and puts up with me.  I am happy for today that I am exactly where I need to be even though I don't understand why things happen the way they do, doesn't matter, it is all good.  I am most of all happy, thankful and grateful for the love of God.  He loves us despite ourselves and that is most definitely a great thing.

8-31-14

Labor Day weekend.  So he left two years ago..so why do things still trigger me such as finding out that my former husband bought a house right behind my school.  Most will say, "That is just wrong."  Spent the last few days probing why my feelings are triggered because it represents a sadness that my family is gone... that my husband rejected me once again because he finally found a woman who he could leave me for... I guess that is the real trigger.

I know better what I want in my next relationship with a man.. and I am willing to wait for it and not settle on second best.  I have a list and I am trying to live the list myself.  This past year has been a journey of dating and finding out about men.  It has been an interesting journey and I am very grateful for where I am at right now. 

There is such a peace and knowing that I will be with this person by the time I am 50.  My daughter has a request that she wants me to be with someone so that we can be a family.  That is my request to the universe.  All the pieces will fall into place soon.  I just need to open my heart and not be guarded!  Exciting times.

8-28-14
So, a year ago I came home to a more than unpleasant visit.  Went on to have a great evening.  It is a year later.  While what I thought and wanted to happen did not and life still triggers me in a deep way, I am still very excited about being grateful for my life, living in the moment and looking forward to being so excited about my next journey. I am in a much better place... So thankful for everything that has led me to this moment for it is in this moment that I can choose to be at peace or let me mind drift to less than noble thoughts. 

8-9-10

Enjoying the moment, the hour, the day and my life today.  I will be fifty in 8 months and I am so excited about the wonderful changes, opportunities, loves, fun, and just adventure to come my way by then.  I am so certain about one thing that I have written about in my journal and I will reveal on the day I turn 50.

7-13-14

The Super moon is absolutely beautiful tonight!!! It makes me happy.

6-30-14

Last day of June.. Working on the yard.  Why do I always have such unrealistic expectations when it comes to yard work completion?   I am thankful for my yard.  What is the list of things I want in someone I will share my life with someday?
1.  Available...
2.  Respectful
3.  Wants to have fun and be somewhat of a daredevil
4.  Has nice encouraging words even when down
5.  Positive
6.  Godly and wise
7.  Has common interests or goals

I guess I will need to be these things first so that I know what they look like in others.

6-16-14

Today I wanted to have a message and it is
"HOPE FLOATS"
I will know.

5-26-14

Life is good and the future is promising.  It is filled with hope, adventure, peace, calm and happiness.  Getting away from someone toxic who does not know that they are toxic is a blessing.  I know that God has a life and blessings ahead for my daughter and me.  I look forward to his promises for hope, peace and excitement.  Let go and do not look back.  Don't be like Lot's wife who looked back and turned into stone.  Choose to look ahead and seek God and He will bring the peace that passes all understanding.  I will be with my soulmate by the time I am 50.  Even my daughter wants this to happen.  All will be restored.

5-19-14

New day and it will be a good one.  Message of the day is, "Don't look back. Keep moving forward and rest and have peace that you are exactly where you need to be."

All will make sense in due time and I am off already on my next journey, to experience a full, wonderful life with love, happiness, rest, peace, and fun!!!

4-18-14

This week has been a struggle to maintain a calm, peaceful outlook.  I find myself dealing with anger towards a person for taking away my dream, life, and family... but God in Jeremiah knows where I am and he has plans for hope and a future that is the fulfillment of my dreams, life and family so I am grateful to where I am because it is exactly where I am supposed to be!!

4-6-14
So it will be one year until I turn 50. By that time I will know several things that I am asking the Universe to clue me in on.  Most importantly though, I want to be in a place that is loving, kind, organized, and simple.  It will happen, don't know how, but God has not let me know yet.  It has felt confusing at times, but I trust that I am exactly where I need to be.

03-24-14

Today is going to be a great day.  Missing my daughter today.  She is away for a week with her father in what used to be our house in Queen Creek and now it is his.  Move forward, life goes on, it will get better, the best is yet to come... I know, but I just hate that things have to change from the dream that we created for our life.

3-29-14

So I faced the evil today of my situation and felt very calm despite the fact that my daughter wanted to come home.  I got to hug her and remind her that we cannot change other people but can only control ourselves.  Give love and it will come back to you.

I am trying to follow this same mantra.. It has been an interesting journey towards divorcing, yes I am divorcing a person who has such seduction and meanness all in the same breathe.   But, I am not to point fingers, but to be grateful for all that I have experienced that has led me to this place in time. 

All will make sense in time and again, I will say, "All that God does is done well."

Thank you, thank you, thank you for this moment in time.  I am exactly where I need to be!

3-9-14

It's Sunday and I am busy cleaning out the old.  I have moments of sadness, frustration and the sinking feeling that I have been conned for 18 years.  Then I am reminded of whom I trust and who will take what another has taken and turn it around and bless me beyond my wildest dreams.  I am hopeful that the best is yet to come.  I am excited about next steps.  In the meantime, clean out the old and embrace the new for it will be the best!!!!

3-7-14
Today is going to be a great day.  I always come back to this statement.  Regardless of what the day brings, I try to reset every morning and look forward to the new adventure of the day.  The past two years have been a tough transition, but I have got to know that great things are ahead for my daughter and me.  I will have a soulmate (who will know that I am his) and I will experience a love that is better than anything I could ever imagine.  I want to experience this before leaving this Earth.  So every morning is a new day to have a great day and accomplish much.  Let's begin!!

2-5-2014

Today is a great day... Learned by trial and error to unclog my bathroom sink.  Very excited when it is accomplished and everything is put back together and works.  Takes a while but I bet with practice, I could get faster.  That sounds like so many things.  The enemy to doing these things is time... that is why you save your money and hire a good handy man and or plumber.

2-4-14

Facebook created an interesting items today. They posted your highlights of your life since being on facebook.  I think this will be a lot like heaven.  I hope they will run a series of photos of the good and not the bad.  As I looked at the good over the last 6 years, I was happy and sad.  I was happy with the memories and sad that what I thought was my life, had ended and a new one has begun... so maybe happy, sad and then happy again.  I know that soon the last year and half will make sense.
I have enjoyed warm happy memories on a cold day!!

1-13-14

Yesterday, Sunday was a great day.  I could handle more than I thought I could.  Attitude is everything.  My daughter learned a huge lesson in not panicking and trusting that everything would work out.  We thought we left some things in Tulsa, OK only to find them at home.  But, we learned to calm ourselves in the midst of the storm and hold on to our peace (lesson learned) that no matter the outcome that life goes on and that things will work out.

I am excited about this year and how things are going to work out in many areas, but my job is to enjoy each day, just enjoy!! That is what I aspire in my 50's is to get up every morning and just walk through the day and just look forward to what the moment, the hour and the day may have in store. 

1-5-2014

Happy one year anniversary of writing FIRE... Wow, it has flown by.  I thought I would be in a much different spot today, but the one thing I know a year later is that God is still in Everything... and that you much trust him and go through life loving and forgiving others and handling the life lessons that come your way...

It is snowing today... What did I mark off my bucket list yesterday that was never on there in the first place... my closet door was stuck and it does not have a lock or screws on handle.  After twisting it and pounding on the door in frustration, I said a simple prayer for grace and knowledge.  Got on google and found some helpful info but nothing short of break down the door and replace.  So tried the hinges and those babies weren't budging.  Then thought about my WWD 40.. sprayed and got a knife to jimmy the lock back into the slot and low and behold, it opened.  Let's just say I have zebra duck tap holding the lock in place so I can at least shut the door...


Life is about getting through the mini dust storms that come your way.  If you will stay calm, the answers will come.

1-3-14
I want this year to be about next steps.... I want my daughter's next 4 years to be about love, family, fun and commitment.  I will be with someone who will never let me go (fever pitch)... This is going to be a great year of excitement!!!