12-18-16
As another year comes to a close, I can honestly say that I am blessed beyond my wildest imagination.  I am at peace with where I am, and I get up each day thankful for all that is in my life.  I shudder to think about what I would feel like if things had not changed in my life.  These changes have been the hardest for my daughter (I would have kept the things the same if it had meant her happiness), but she is adjusting too; and she is realizing some very important key components needed in relationships.

I look forward to 2017... this will be the best year yet!

1-9-16

So far 50 has been wonderful and challenging. New experiences, loves and places mark a wonderful adventure into the future.  Dealing with the past and trying to stay positive and move on in the midst of manipulation, lies and meanness has been the challenging part.  The later had worn me down to the point that I had not been myself lately.  Winter Break was good for me to recharge by spending time with myself and a friend, resting, and organizing my life again.  

I realized during this time how much I had put on automatic pilot and that I had felt that I was swimming in a deep, violent ocean with no relief in sight.  

It took a spark from others to snap me back to realizing that I have a purpose and a vision for my life and for those around me.  I am thankful today for that spark, regardless of how much it hurt initially, that was needed to wake me!!!!  

May life give you the sparks you need to get back on track.

4-16-15

Remember to be courageous and kind today!

4-5-15

Today, I turn 50.  A little more than two years ago I began this journey and it has been a series of challenges, adventures, beginnings and endings.  The following were my goals:
1.  Learn about myself
2.  Figure out what I want the 2nd half of my life to be like
3.  To help others particularly woman with their journey towards 50

In many ways, I feel that my life can begin again... New decade, new adventures, and most of all new loves.  I am exploring all of these options.  The past is not quite done, but I hope it is soon and through the most recent challenges, my hope is to have better communication and all things settled so that one so sweet, kind, and courageous can relax, enjoy have fun for the next three years.  My truth be the ultimate indicator. I have most definitely learned about myself particularly why I do and feel the things I do and feel.  I want the second part of my life to be filled with  love, fun, and kindness.


So far these are the things I like:
1.  My precious daughter.
2.  My cute furry dogs.
3.  My beautiful house.
4.  My perfectly awesome job.
5.  Monte Cristo sandwiches
6.  A clean organized house
7.  Warm sunny day
8.  A freshly mowed yard.
9. The love, adventure, and fun of a wonderful man.
10.  Laughter
11.  Rest
12.  Purpose
13. Hanging out with friends and just talking and laughing.
14.  Truth even when it hurts.
15.  Having time for everything on my mind
16.  Hugs
17.  Coffee
18.  Family
19.  Running long distances.
20.  White Birthday Cake.
21.  Kind words.
22. Chip and Joanna Gaines
23.  Arkansas, Alaska, Arizona, Kentucky and North Carolina.

Today begins the best part of my life. I am exactly where I need to be. So I need to get up, get moving and start really living the second half of my life.   FIRE: Fifty Igniting Real Excitement.

Ten more days until I am 50.  I will know 2 things... My 50's are going to be my best time yet.  I will have a wonderful life, family and the last 2.5 years and then 17 years will fade away as most a pleasant but distant memory.  Love is the key and every day is a challenge to give love, but it is worth all the work.  I am thankful for many things in my life.

3-15-15

As 50 closes in and life seems to keep going in circles.. I am reminded of God's love.  It is his best idea yet.  Keep loving and all will fall into place.  Keep looking for the silver lining and it will light up.  All will make sense soon.  21 more days!!!!!
I am asking for two thing right now.  Both will come true.

2-9-15
I am so thankful for the words of many of my friends. These words are the bread that I eat at times that sustain me through shear confusion of the day.  But I find these words when I need them.  I read today from a dear friend that I knew so many years ago, "Thank you, God for your love.  This is the best ideas you've had yet."

My heart just sang and my whole being relaxed.  I am on a journey and even in the desert, God places the water that I need in all the right places. 

As I turn 50, I want to live each day, working and loving just as hard as I can.  At the end of the day, we give it all to Him who loves us despite ourselves.  Plans, plans, plans!!!! Give up the plans and let God give you his fresh plans.  It will be worth the wait.